in deep existential crisis..

A Journal by Sara


Been really sometime to have had space to enter the blogzone.Just thought would have a post to say people that I am really alive and kicking as ever. Would start making regular posts in 1-4 weeks time, and between, will now fix myself a drink and watch one of my favorite movie. I always love saturdays and esp. its evening.

Damn, Did I forget to say, I bricked my iPhone and missing the cool companion at the moment!


August 29, 2009 Posted by | Personals | Leave a comment

Launching the Cool gadget!

Billions of devices are made till date and to maintain the edge, companies have left no stone unturned.We have a company, whose employees are also vigorously trying to turn one such stone, with a lot of muscle power. Yes, our famous, super cool company known for its innovation, ‘Dapple Inc’. The popular ‘Blueiff’ website has come with a cool headline quoting ‘Wherever you are, run to Dapple Stores immediately’, excited, all ran.

‘Dapple coming up with yet another promo event, introduces (rather gift, such affectionate they are) iNothing to the world’. Of course, it is an ultra light thin, iNothing. Yes, world has at last got iNothing, thanks Dapple. Dapple Chairman proudly unveiled nothing, oops, iNothing and was carefully detailing his presentation slides to the dignitaries.

Our brand new iNothing box consists of nothing; (okay not again), iNothing, a data cable which can only charge the device and surprisingly stronger battery, reason explained later. Our iNothing is as usual, thinner and lighter than our competitor’s products. Though this time, we have made a superior ergonomic iProduct, which is our special case of iNothing. iNothing has a flat smooth surface at the front side, so much so that, neither we bothered to put in buttons spoiling the smoothness, nor we have added the touch controls which surprises users most often, with its own inimical style.

Though, we have to sacrifice on the features front of iNothing, to an awful extent that it has really got nothing inside, but still we have come up with something for its hefty price, that your battery stands for 2 full moons, and to play around with iNothing, you just have to show the rear side to the full moon, which has the Dapple logo glowing in the moonlight, also effectively saving your battery. To sum up, we have an innovative product, coined iNothing which has a battery that could last for 2 full moons, even after that just with a full moon. Show us one competitor who has such an effective battery incorporated?

Now, the news spread out like a fire about the Dapple i-launch and people all over the country has lined up for buying iNothing at Dapple Stores. Our Blueiff journalist, caught hold of an i-fanatic, in the queue who looked he’s straight out of his bathtub to the Dapple stores. We asked, what are you here for? I am here to buy the Dapple product, he said. What product? He said in a low tone, just to let only us know, that he don’t know, but heard that Dapple has come up with yet another iStuff, which he heard is pretty cool. Our journalist was kind enough to let him know that he is about to buy the cool gadget called iNothing, for which he raised his brows ans said thanks! Mate!

Journo asked, do you at least know what iNothing is used for? He answered, ‘iNothing, a freaky name, I am sure it would be used for everything. By the way, after a minute he blinked at him, asking does he have an idea or two on that?, Journo said, Well, as far I gather from reliable sources, I am afraid to let you know it really is used for nothing and is really nothing except for the cool logo. And not to mention its price!

The guy replied, Cool, Not an issue! I like the logo embossed and is actually more important for me to let folks know I have an iProduct. If it’s nothing, don’t worry! Mate! They will really come up with an i3.0 or i3.1 version of iNothing, fixing them all. I am confident! Money, Ha! Never an issue, as long as I have my credit card!

Little did he know, he is going to buy really nothing, but his bank statement will show him something.

P.S: ‘Blueiff’ has ordered its editor to prepare a report describing all the future iProducts and also some captivating headlines. The future iProducts are coming soon!

September 12, 2008 Posted by | Electronics/Products, Miscellaneous, Modern Trendss, No Disclaimers | 2 Comments

Niagara – Fall with her !

Those moments in life, you kick on dust with annoyance and whirr yourself that you are leading a black and white life. The moment ticks on, only to see you return to your old school way of living again, accepting the reality. Even if you had wanted to, you are limited by your constraints.

Imagine a way, your holiday goes as set and smooth and the way you want it to roll; you pack your bags up and drive without any distress to those mindboggling mother nature at its divine best, at few hundreds of miles away. If only you could wash away all those gripe in you and rub ice on your heart for a day or two; where you stop thinking your way, and relish how altruistic nature has been to you always!

The real star ....

The real star ....

I had them all, a fortnight back, with couple of my buddies in town. We had planned to hit and rock New York City and pack everything up the following dawn to visit ‘The’ Niagara Falls. The Niagara, which had always been an unusual third partner in most couple’s privacy, who has visited her place.

Pradeep had informed me earlier, we shall drive our way to the Niagara. The drive through valley, mountains and the scenic landscape would be the route to the destination. We clicked loads of photographs with different color tone, scenic mode and much more, ripping through every possible techiee config in the camera. I should definitely mention here, the top-of-the-line camera Ganapathy brought; it was cool discussing the art of photography with him and checking out different location to shoot. We rocked all our way to the trip, finally finding a technique to plug iPod to the aux output of the audio system and soon the beats thumped us; with some outstanding high-range music throwing us out of our seats and setting our body sway, we drenched in even before we hit Niagara City.

We reached the falls exactly by 3 at evening, as Pradeep kept clocking the three figures on the radar consistently on drive. He split the metal out of the pedal and was accurate most of the times, whizzing past every vehicle. It was a perfect match for him to have laid his hands and legs on a SUV, as he chased the time swiftly. I wondered how quickly he got his mode switched to the American way of driving and taught a lot of tricks to me as well while on board. It was truly moments to cherish and to remember almost his thousand plus miles of driving in as less as 60 hours, which was also packed with visiting and staying in two different places. I was quite skeptical at the start as we had couple of minor violations and hiccups, but once he got his eye in, Man! He was unstoppable! But hey! Why should I stop him when he is cruising in his own style! Hitting every city as planned and finally on clear afternoon, catching up the Ms. Gorgeous, when I say, yea, it is the real, bloody, damn, fugging Gorgeous, well, the real fun filled girl if I should match up to!

Pradeep .. turning the wheels !

Pradeep .. turning the wheels !

As we checked in exactly 3 in the evening – the exact check in time we booked online earlier, we gave a moment of ponder to the receptionist keeping her think ‘Are Indians, the most punctual on earth!’ We chuckled after all, and checked in the room. Now, we drove near the Niagara Falls, and walked in with fun all ends up.

Pradeep had a firsthand look at the falls, and were waiting for me and Ganapathy with disappointment, as we were grabbing snack and burger to fill our real hunger. He texted his bro saying we are disappointed.

Standing at the American falls side, we missed to have a look at the Canadian side of the falls which exactly is the abode of Gods! We took a ride up to the abode, in the ‘Maid of the Mist’ tour with doubt.

Little did we know the real rush through the spine, blood and every named part, are to be felt in the next few moments, when the boat started wading through the river. The gushes of fall kept ringing in my ears; where the Niagara River reaches the crest, and cascades downwards at say 50 miles per hour, at the intersection of America and Canada; truly a site to behold and the moment to savor! Now, having entered ‘The’ Horseshoe there was a tranquility that embraced the soul, spirit and mind of one self.

Canadian falls in the background ...

Canadian falls in the background ...

We had an enlightened feeling inside the horseshoe and to give you a glimpse, the horseshoe, known locally, is the River Niagara falling in delight covering herself up on three sides and admitting only you in. Well, If only you could imagine the thrill of being surrounded by falls on three sides and effectively on the other side too with the enormous amount of river fall splashing all over, making its own wall of water, closing the fourth side too. Serene!

Pradeep, texted back, saying ‘She was not at all disappointing’.

September 10, 2008 Posted by | My Camera, No Disclaimers, Photography, Travel | 1 Comment

The date!

Enough I had notions, uncertainties and marvel on her. Now, I have reached close to her, next, what? Sheesh, I can’t touch her yet, fine, it’s after all a moment for I have waited all along, let me wait a little more.

Finally the moment closed in; yes I touched her on an overcast night. Millions have touched her, but yet she has preserved her sanctity; remained fresh and waiting for me. Others, who had a feel of her, say once you touch her, she embraces, she entertains and she casts a magic wand on you and she does everything you long for. Let’s see what has she got up her sleeve tonight? Gotham, they call her. The Big Apple, they call her. They say she never sleeps. Yes, she is the New York City.

It had always been my dream to rove in metropolis and cosmopolitan cities of the world. Walk slipshod on the sidewalks of the famed streets, cranking heavy metal through my can, full of music pounding my ear drums on a sunny day. Swig in tequila shots, puff a King size fag, and there I am!

New York City is a single case study of a broader phenomenon, urbanization, which has marked the period of modernity and effected shocking changes around the world.

NY Skyline - Spend an evening watching it!

NY Skyline - Spend an evening watching it!

Having stepped out of the car at West 31st Street, I walked up straight in to the mid-town Manhattan, the economic and cultural heart of the city; dominated by skyscrapers. Grabbed a cappuccino at the next café and headed to the West 42nd street. It had an atmosphere you will instantly fall for and accompanied by a noise of the city which filled bass in my ears, the sound which had an immense calm in it. I could notice immigrants of diverse ethnicity, creed and race wandering around getting a taste of this city. The entire city is well connected by hundreds of miles of subway rail track, trains cruising underneath. The manhole on the roads emitting smoke, from underground city beneath, was a sight I bemused at.

The incredible thing is that New York looks even better up-close, in person. New York seems to have engendered by its image on the big screen, someone once said that to grasp it “you should not …begin with the city and move inwards to the screen; rather you should begin with the screen and move outwards to the city”; a perfect synonym.

NY City's sheen

NY City's Sheen

It’s much like movies. It was fun, visiting the Madame Tussauds, the home for celebrity wax figures. You will wonder how this magic of wax artistry could look this real. You can rub shoulders with the Hollywood’s finest, legendary sportsmen, political biggies and all-time pop stars. It’s a star studded morning for me, to talk about my Caribbean knowledge to Johnny Depp, stirring equation along with Albert Einstein, join a fast with Gandhi, play guitar with Jimi Hendrix, hug Jennifer Aniston, hand a blow to Mike Tyson, crack jokes with Chaplin, discuss the next Indiana Jones with Steven Spielberg, join along with Bill Gates cursing Google and last but not least advise on foreign policies to George W. Bush. It was huge sets well classified. Yes, as you might think now, I almost got close to breaking one, but god saved. An hour of looking around the fantasy, I got out now to the real world.

Team work@Madame Tussauds

Team work@Madame Tussauds

Walked through the intersection of celebrated streets of Fifth Avenue and West 34th Street to the Empire State Building and followed stairs. Surprised to see a security check on! Yes, thorough security checks and then had to wait up for another hour to go to the top floor. Well to have finally gotten there up, whoa, I had no words to describe! It was a panorama that got etched in my heart. Having a look around the radiant New York City landscape, I could feel for real everything, see people shop ‘til they drop in the luxury shopping zone of Fifth and Madison Avenues, feel People rocking in the Hard Rock Café, smell the money being made day and night on the Wall Street, discover the orient in China Town, The Broadway Theater that screened AR Rahman’s musical, Times Square, Madison Square Garden, the high profile U.S open live, the NYPD patrolling the city, the headquarters of world’s greatest of brands. All of this grandeur shoe-horned into only a 50 Sq. km goes on to portray the stature of this city.

Snap from the Empire State risking my lovely phone

Snap from the Empire State risking my lovely phone

I was looking at an evanescent, yet lingering New York. An hour of wham-bam serious clicking of photographs and all my shooting skills were out on the floor! Some video recordings followed too! I could spot the Chrysler Building, GE, Statue of Liberty, Brooklyn Bridge, Central Park, Rockefeller Center and all other places of the city and its suburbs. A pigeon sat to the outer edge at the vicinity, and all were spot on shooting pictures of it. Yet it would not look scared but proud, leaving an everlasting wish in us, if only we could be at its place. I could imagine an illusory moment holding the edge of the building from the other side and looking down the ground from fifteen hundred feet. Huah! It sent shiver down my spine.

I left the place ecstatic, and was cooling the heels off for couple of hours in the Jersey City. Picked a PATH train to West 34th street and was biting a Mac chicken for dinner at McD. Walked in to the Times Square. Times Square with its multicolored stuttering invocation of ebullience looked day light even at midnight. Perhaps, a moment that reminds you are in the city that never sleeps. It is a costliest place on earth to put on display, a digital billboard. NASDAQ with its huge sign, nearly 100 feet high, is known to be paying more than $2 million a year to lease the space.

Pigeon flying high! Whoa, If only I could be there!

Pigeon flying high! Whoa, If only I could be there!

You can travel the world just by walking a few blocks within the Times Square area and visiting some of the many fabulous shopping stores, multi cuisine restaurants, musical venue, and big brand corporate offices.

It is a busy intersection of culture and entertainment capturing visitors’ mind to it. Billboards around include Toshiba, Coca Cola, Budweiser, McDonald s, Chevrolet and many others. Times Square acts the head quarters of Morgan Stanley, Ernst and Young, Lehman Brothers, Bain and Company, Thomson Reuters, MTV Networks and dozens more.

The commercial buildings are Macy’s, M&M Store and the hotels include Renaissance, Sheraton, Marriott and the great Hard Rock Café opposite to NASDAQ signs.

Whether you want to call it spontaneity or chaos, there are a million different New York moments that can catch you off-guard and sweep you off your feet.

Times Square at midnight, a pace of life to match!

Times Square at midnight, a pace of life to match!

Constant bustling streets, and tall skyscrapers around, and the complex subway system, no matter how grandiose or beautiful New York’s sights are, their combined scale may seem even overwhelming.

Whether it is the Frank Sinatra’s track ‘new york, new york, I wanna wake up in a city that never sleeps’ or the AR Rahman’s score ‘New York nagaram urangum boathu’ You will walk the feeling all over, in the Manhattan island of the New York City.

It’s not difficult to fall in love with New York. You just have to watch a Woody Allen Film, “Sex and the City” or “Gossip Girl” to see how the city is as much an actor as the others. It has an aura, attitude, sex appeal and grit.

You are the New York City!

September 9, 2008 Posted by | Infra Structure, My Camera, No Disclaimers, Photography, Travel | 10 Comments

Business Trip!

Welcome to United States!

These Verses from LP’s track “Hit the Floor” summarizes my first feelings here best !

“One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won
And then it’s all gone”

July 31, 2008 Posted by | No Disclaimers, Personals | Leave a comment

She celebrates her first Bday!

Uhhhh! Its been a long long time since hitting that ‘New Post’ hyperlink!

Thanks to everyone who made this blog livelier with their involvement and help till this day!

It has been inactive for the larger portions of this year, but, I promise I would go full throttle in the next few weeks to come and make it better in this second year of the blog!

Expecting an important amendment in ‘My Life Act’ in next few days! Hope that settles and drives me henceforth to keep posting more articles in this blog and share fun with you all!

Happy Birthday!

May 26, 2008 Posted by | No Disclaimers | Leave a comment

Was almost knocking the doors !

Riding back home from office around 0100 IST, at a flash of the moment it happened. what I thought would be the final couple of seconds in my life, I closed my eyes and  almost thought my number was up !

The car whizzed past me, the speed what I believed would have surely clocked three figures, left all my focus falling into pieces … there I had my leg trembling on bike gears, thought I would stop for a while, but rather carried on to see off this dreadful ride quicker !

Gifted I am, to write this blog now !

August 10, 2007 Posted by | Personals, Witnessed on the move | Leave a comment

Take Mild! Walk Mile!

I never had a clue even at dusk on last Friday, that I would walk more than a mile before jumping to bed. After having to ride my awful motorbike back home, I thought the first thing I would do was switch on the AC and turn off the senses.

You don’t know how on earth would you start topics on Carnatic Music even in an uncanny state of mind, and then switch gears to technology and later to spiritualism then to pants to trousers to gays to lesbians to Indians to economics to sex to cricket to school to blonde and walk miles unknowingly.

By the time I figured out WTF …. I found myself waking up to the breakfast next day!

The second and third paragraph might look out of sequence! Well, it makes sense if I let you know one word…. Whisky!

July 9, 2007 Posted by | No Disclaimers | Leave a comment

SARA – Sevenified

On the spiritual note ……

This thought struck me when I was driving few days back…… as my favorite number is 7. Not because I was born on 7th, a Saturday. In spiritual context, the number 7 is attributed to the god VISHNU and also has strong connection to the day, Saturday. More interesting fact, I was named after this God.  This co-incidence had me do a bit of research over the issue and led to more startling revelations.

Continuing the magical note ….

I was named by an old woman who herself was named after the spouse of the same God and was born on 7th which again was a Saturday too [May 7, 1927], the year 1927 which has Saturday as its first day of the year. Now it starts gripping, the lady passed away on a Saturday too in the year 1997.

Add to it, my dad was born on 7th May too. The birth year of my mom is 1949 also has Saturday as its first day of the year much like the 1927 discussed above.

On the educational front …

Significant moments/milestones in my life also followed suit with the same magic. 7 had always been in light throughout the chapters of my life, few of the intriguing stats, the first important examination of my career, the Senior Secondary School Exam was in the academic year 1997, also had too many seven’s in my registration no. and at last I scored 377/500 which again is a percentage of 75. The journey continued on and could you guess what next? Yes, my Higher Secondary examination also had two seven’s in the registration number and of course, my mark was 1117 which had a majors aggregate of 97.37% and engineering cut off mark was 277.77. I completed my college course with 70.7% with most of the 64 papers, in the course curriculum, scores in 70’s.  With due apologies to a friend, of course, I still remember the road accident, in which me and my friend were victimized, while waiting on the platform for bus during the vacation of 7th semester  which confined me to the hospital  bed for 7 days.

On the assets front …

After the completion of college, from the start of the year 2004, I attended recruitment event of 6 companies, only to end up on losing side every time. The 7th one was successful and I worked there for 2.7 years. Decided to hop, I attended 6 company’s teleinterviews with few of them successful, but I rejected them for other reasons. I attempted one more, which I thought would be my last try and would be off the hunt for a while, but surprise the 7th company clicked. Of course, all this 7 attempts are in this year, 2007. Not to forget, my employee ID in both the companies carried the number 7. My bank account carries couple of 7’s and my credit card carried three 7’s. My PAN card carries a 7. My bike number starts with 7, of course I am not talking about the seven which is in TN-07 – Chennai Registration.

Although in life, seven wives or seven lakhs overdue amount or seven attempts for any important activity are not desirable, as seven intervenes frequently.

On the astrological front

Last year, I visited an astrologer who was peculiar in many a ways, was straight asking me the chapters of life I am curious to know about. The discussion then carried on for the next few hours where to my horror he was correct saying that I had a sister who died as an infant born in 1977, then on reaching a specific chapter, he requested me to visit a temple on every Saturday for the next 2 years, anyway which I was doing even before. Also, when I sought answers for my life expectancy, I was told my life would end on a 7th which would be a Saturday and the year also had a 7 to it. Now don’t get into the integrity of the facts presented by the astrologer/astrology, I added this piece of news for a mere relevance to 7.

Not mere the fetish of 7 …….

Looks… I am hooked to this number, but can’t stop comparing the striking similarities, as the number is also in sync with the notion of Saturday and God Vishnu. However, most striking, is the fact that I am born and brought up all these years (except for the absence of 2 years) in the place called Triplicane which is revered as one among the 64 Dhivya Dheshams [Sacred Places] of Vaishnavites [Worshippers of Vishnu]with the presence of Parthasarathi Temple built in 8th century.  Starting with the birth on 7th Saturday, seems to connect too many similarities on its way to the presaged death on 7th Saturday, although strongly not desired.

07-07-07 à the day tomorrow

For me, the dawn of tomorrow is not just marked by the allure 07-07-07 or its rare occurrence, but for the fascinating/worrying fact that the triple 7 would shake hands again with a


Ideally, I would like 7 be reserved to bring pleasant visuals in my living than being a poignant image in my mind. As there are few combos of them which had accompanied distasteful moments in my life earlier, I don’t know whether I should smile towards the east or towards the west, the day tomorrow.

July 6, 2007 Posted by | No Disclaimers | 3 Comments

Changing days!!!

Scene 1:

More than a decade back, while on a visit to the city, I accompanied my grandfather to the nearby phone booth. He showed me a piece of paper having a telephone number  written on it and asked me to dial up. I was a bit surprised, since I never knew how to dial. In all my past, I had just talked over the phone when someone handed me a receiver with a connection. After couple of trials, there I completed my first phone call ever in life.


Scene 2:

Few weeks back, while on regular travel back home from office, I stepped out of the auto near a famous software park and started walking towards the railway station to pick a train. As I reached well ahead of schedule, I was walking with slow pace, near the stairs of railway station I spotted a scruffy man with long beard, shabby and repulsive, lying down the ground. I walked up to him and was about to offer him a rupee. He took a mobile phone out from his shirt pocket and held it in two hands, pulling his legs crossed. I am utterly shocked at the incident and turned back to walk up the stairs. I guessed later he was playing a mobile game.

Recently, I have come across quite a handful of incident like this, which often reminds me the Scene 1 and the changing days I am walking through.

May 25, 2007 Posted by | Witnessed on the move | 3 Comments